Thursday, 20 November 2008
And end to things.
And so I stand here, hands on the edge of the bridge. The sun is going down. The cold water below. Chilled breeze runs over me, makes me shiver. I feel calm. It's like a release. Why didn't I do it sooner? She's been a part of my life so long, I just never thought I could do it. I never thought it would be so easy either. Hah! I hadn't really thought about it at all. But there it was, the moment, the chance, and after taking it, I now have something to look forward to. I guess I've never been happy. Never been fully satisfied. My love life was holding me back. I guess I thought I knew what I wanted, but now I know that wasn't true. I think it was all fake. And now, having known her for years, I have kissed my childhood friend. Why didn't I see it sooner? Have I always loved her? How long has she waited for me? How many girls did she watch me with? I'm sorry.